hmm somehow i think my tagboard and playlist colour has the Vanilla Coke theme haha i am so random

Slept at 5am last night and woke up at 11am. I dreamt of you coming back but when i woke up i realised it was just a good dream that i doubt will happen in real life. Sigh i like to sleep i dont like to wake up. I am hopeless.

The hardest to do is waking up without you.

Today is just crap i woke up because my mum make noise and yesterday was also my first time falling asleep while talking on the phone. Sorry. Sigh i wanna go to a place full of flowers and green stuff so i can relax relax relax and just relax.

Swensens with Ariel Yunjie Lynette Jeremiah Wenfeng for ice cream today and it was okay. Cheese fries at kfc and went home after that. Today is just like any other stupid and useless day excluding the outing. Yunjie please dont slap me liao my cheek pain pain ah

There are times when I cant decide whether to see you or not, I want to see you because I miss you but there are times when I dont want to see you because everytime I do, the fact that you dont see me the way that I see you hurts me even more ...

Should I just pretend to be happy whenever i sms you? Everything is so different now and we have become just like strangers. It seems that you dont care and i have no idea how to react when i see you in school so i guess i should just take it that you dont exist? Maybe not. Ah my skirt very loose now every few seconds have to pull adjust adjust pull adjust sigh.

Recess was not so bad but the sight of food disgusted me at first but in the end i still ate. Danced in the studio after school and lucas's birthday celebration at j8 was cancelled but yj and i still went there. Now, school sucks because i have nothing to look forward to after school anymore. Life sucks.

To you, it seems so easy to forget. But it is different for me.

Today was not so bad, history, ce and dancing in class but after school it kinda sucked. Mum and dad started talking to me about my height and how i used to grow so fast, and the amount of food i ate each day now. It is not that i dont want to eat but i just don't feel like "putting stuff into my mouth" and I know that, because i am often hungry hahaha. Oh yay i laughed

You can close your eyes to things you don’t want to see, but you can’t close your heart to things you don’t want to feel.

School was a disaster today i could not hold back my tears but whatever. Sigh did not really do much today cause higher mt was stupid english was stupid history was boring d&t was crap. I should go read some stuff and maybe do some homework now. Cheer up Ariel! I am here for you.

The hardest to do is waking up without you

I hate my life why is it like this? Everything i do i keep thinking of stuff i think i will never forget. What should i do should i just ignore and treat it as nothing had happened or just wait and wait and wait while it is hurting me so much? Wa lau my blog very sad leh what crap

Pepper lunch with Yunjie, King Ian and Lucas instead of basketball with Qing on Friday and it was kinda nice and after that we bought candy to eat. Guess I should start hanging out with my classmates more often. Got most of my results back and I am not really satisfied cause Ariel you beat me in English this time but it is okay I still love you Sigh this week was just terrible

I miss you a little, I guess you could say, a little too much, a little too often, and a little more each day

Nothing much happened these few days I am just posting to revive my blog. There is training tomorrow I hope it will not kill me. I hate school I hate school I hate school. Sigh

When you said forever, you meant a few months. When I said forever, I meant every day until I died. When you said always, you meant until you couldn't handle it anymore. When I said always, I meant until time ended. When you said you loved me, you meant I was no different from any other girl. When I said I loved you, I meant I had never felt what I felt for you.

Damn I am still sick and my temperature is 39.0. I wonder if I can recover by monday!

I went to collect my phone with ZE last friday and this time I got it yay. School sucks today swollen eyes and fever and I slept during art drawing test. Sigh